To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering, one must not love. But then, one suffers from not loving. Therefore, to love is to suffer; not to love is to suffer; to suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy, then, is to suffer, but suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be happy, one must love or love to suffer or suffer from too much happiness.

If you could only stop your heartbeat for one heart

Bill Callahan's Sometimes I Wish We Were An Eagle is the best album of 2009







Little tiny pieces of peace for me sometimes
Everything I've eaten for a week has spinach in it
Of all the people in the world, why should I love you?
Somehow my brain still associates love with good things
I still like to think about it and feel it

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Every other year is gone away to me and I can't remember any other version of myself. Keeping a notebook doesn't work for me, I can't express myself in words about what I did or who I thought I loved.

I am the non-linear, hope in clairvoyance, I am the gold that dances around your hair when you stand in front of the setting sun



2009 was so painful and then like 3 things were good



2010 is going to be my best year.. I hope it gets really fucking meta

where are everyone's goals and I'm scared

I want to go back in time with you to when everyone traveled by trains

I want to give you things to which you can look forward

And I can still use your light to read by
But I can't use your feet to keep my feet warm

Don't be upset
And I will try not to be upset

I want to marry you
Or leave something of mine at your house for a long time